They Never Said It Would Be Easy...

I have been struggling lately, with a few things.. First off, Being married is ALOT harder than I thought it would be. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE being married! But it is hard.. Learning to adjust to life that isn't just about ME anymore has been difficult. Yes, I admit that I was/still am spoiled. Except Michael doesn't give me everything I want which I am totally greatful for. He is an amazing husband, I have realized a lot in these 2 short month of being married. Life is hard. Marriage is hard. Money situations are hard. Jobs are hard. Worrying about paying bills for BOTH of you and not just for yourself, making sure he is happy, fed, the house is clean, the laundry is done, the dishes are done, and on and on.. Its all just hard! BUT I am loving every minute of it! I have figured out a lot about myself in the last two months that I never knew! It has been a great ride, and I'm so happy that I get to stay on it forever! I was venting to my mom the other night about how hard it was and how it is not as easy as I had imagined.. You know like, Being so in love you can't take your eyes off of each other, always holding hands and cuddling every second you're together, ALWAYS laughing, Never fighting, And just being PERFECT! But boy did reality hit me hard. My mom said something that I will always remember that has helped me the past couple of days. She said "Marriage has been one of the hardest things I have ever done, But it is the most rewarding!" I love that! How true that is. It is hard, But it sure is rewarding! Yeah I've only been married a couple months but I can already see how rewarding it is, and I love it.

Another thing I have been struggling with which is kind of dumb and irrelevant.. Is Michael goes and plays basketball 2 days a week, and he is gone for what seems like forever! And I just sit at home, clean, clean, and clean, and watch netflix. At first it was nice to have some 'me' time, but now i am getting bored and depressed.. He is out having fun and I'm stuck at home doing nothing.. I feel like i don't have friends. (I know i do and thats why this is dumb) But I don't hang out with anyone. When I was Single I felt like all my friends were married and didn't have time for me anymore or they didn't want to hang out with a single person. Now that I'm married I feel like nobody wants to hang out with me because they all have kids and I don't, Kind of back to square one. Michael doesn't seem to have this problem, we always hang out with his friends! Single, Married, Engaged yada yada yada.. But we have hung out with some of my friends MAYBE twice since we have been together! I don't know if its me or if I really don't have friends.. But it is really starting to get to me. I guess I just need to put myself out there more. And this is the start of it! Baby steps..

...They Only Said It Would Be Worth It.


      -Branae

(If you read this, thank you for listening to me vent. You are awesome!)

The start of the NEW blog!

As you can see I deleted all the old stuff! Out with the old in with the NEW! I have been thinking about doing this for a while now but I just got the energy to do it! But anyway, I might be posting more.. maybe.. Here goes nothing!

All of you know, Or should know by now. WE ARE MARRIED!!!! Its been One whole month! As of yesterday! Isnt that crazy? I know most of you are thinking im crazy right now but whatever! I seriously still cant believe im married!!! IM MARRIED! To my best friend in the whole wide world! He is so super amazing and i just love him to death! He is the best husband i could have ever asked for! Enough with the mushy stuff, Lets get down to Buisness.. I know you all just sang 'to defeat the huns' in your head, dont lie.

So we got married on December 13, 2013. It was a wonderful day! Except waking up that morning with my eye swollen SHUT! And i mean SHUT! I couldnt open it! I was so mad! Of all the days to get a freaking stye in my eye, today just HAD to be the day! It was HORRIBLE! I had to keep a warm towel on it for most of the day and Michael's step-mom Marcia worked her magic and got me some antibiotics for the dang thing! Bless her soul, she saved my life! Well, The swelling went down, and i would open my eye! Then we got caught up in doing fun things like, going to lunch with his dad and his siblings, and getting ready and stuff that i forgot about it.. I shouldnt have forgot about it because it started to swell yet AGAIN! You have got to be kidding me. I was not happy! I felt like I looked like crap and I know everyone could tell but they all just kept saying "You cant tell at all" "what are you talking about? Your eye is normal" "I wouldnt have even noticed if you didnt tell me!" I call BS! You could totally tell. And in all of our pictures I look sickly. Like gross. Anyway. Enough of that! Our wedding day was perfect besides that! My dad walked me down the isle and married us! I couldnt have asked for anything better! It was beautiful and I cried like a baby! We had alot of people there and that made me so happy! I was worried that nobody would show! We had so many people that there wasnt enough seats! My doubts were wrong! Obviously.
Here are some pictures:

   

On our honeymoon we went to California! Michael and his mom planned the whole thing and I had no clue what we were doing until the wedding! It was fun! We drove to Vegas after the reception and stayed in a pretty nice hotel! Then we got up on Saturday and drove to sandiego! We stayed at a resort called Paridise point! It was heaven!! We were literallyt he only people at the resort thw whole 4 days we were there! We had the whole island to ourselves! It literally was paradise! I felt like we were in Hawaii! Even though I have never been there! We had the beach to ourselves and everything! They had mini golf (which we didn't do because it was expensive) they had segways, tandem bikes, beach cruisers, and these side by side bike things.. We tried one of those out. It was fun! Until I had the bright idea of driving it on the beach, in sand. Well, we got stuck! Hah! I couldn't stop laughing! It was pretty hilarious! Anyway, we just hung out around the island, didn't do anything too exciting! It was nice to just relax and be together! After we left the island then we made our way to DISNEYLAND!!! I love Disneyland! Who doesn't? Oh yeah, my husband. He doesn't like Disneyland! He took me there only because he knew I wanted to go, bless his heart. He is so sweet! I had a blast! I could stay there forever and not care! We had 3 days there so we paced ourselves and just had fun! On Thursday night he surprised me and told me we were having dinner at the Blue Byue (the restaurant in pirates ride) the food was amazing!! A little spendy but it was worth it. So good!! It was so fun to be able to eat there! We had a lot of fun! I wish I could have a honeymoon once a month! Here are some pictures:

(I don't have very many pictures. Michael has them all)

We are living in Mesquite again. I love it! We both love it! It's great! I am doing hair in Stg for now until I can find something closer. Not my first choice but it's a job so it will do for now. Michael is building custom furniture out of the garage and he is loving it! He is so good at it and he enjoys it and that makes me happy! We are loving married life and I am loving that I get to be with him everyday! He is truly my best friend in the whole world and I couldn't have asked for anyone better to be my husband! For now, we are loving life and trying to get it all figured out. It's hard, but it will be worth it. So worth it. Until next time, stay classy!

- Branae BARTLETT!!!! (Still getting used to it) :D